If there is one thing that Nursing school has taught me it's this: I need God. No matter how much I try, there is not enough human power within me to succeed. I've been neglecting sleep, neglecting my social life, embarrassingly enough occasionally neglecting a shower, and I'm ashamed to say neglecting God. I have been so focused on obtaining my earthly goal that I have shoved aside my eternal one.
I can not get to where I want to be on my own. I need God's power, I need God's strength. When everything seems to be going well I tend to "forget" to spend time with God, I "accidentally" sleep through church, I forget to pray, I drift. But as soon as my world crashes and things seem they could't get any worse, who is it that I look to? Who is it that I expect to be there for me when I haven't been there for Him? A relationship is a two way street of loyalty, respect, love, sacrifice. A relationship is a privilege, a blessing often not realized.
But thankfully, I worship a God who gives second chances not just the second time, or the third, but the hundredth time. I have a God who is understanding, forgiving, merciful, loving. I am blessed to have a God that will never give up on my no matter how many devotionals I forget, how many meals I forget to bless, and how many whispers are ignored.
In relation to the recent change in leadership in our country, I have been reminded that this earth is finite, and ending sooner than we want to accept. I have realized that I have been taking each breath for granted. I want to be thankful for each breath, for each whisper, for each prayer, for each promise. So the challenge I have set for myself is to take the time to listen for that small whisper, that promise; to recognize that extra strength I myself cannot supply; and to take those few minutes to talk to my Savior, my Father.
I will never leave you, nor forsake you.
- your loving Father
